So usually when I’ve said this phrase in the past, it was dealing with some that was leading to a MAJOR CHANGE IN MY LIFE. Mainly pregnancy scares. But when it’s said it’s because you haven’t built up the courage to tell your mother, about a life change, be it pregnancy, new girlfriend/boyfriend, not walking across the stage at graduation, etc. The crazy thing is you feel comfortable with other people knowing, but you will break you neck to keep this secret from ya mama.
Considering that my mama carried me for 9 months, took care of me, and damn good care of me for 22 years (til I graduated from undergrad), and still will go to bat for me, I don’t have the courage to tell her “Mama, I’m a stoner”. I think it’s because while I don’t care about most people’s thoughts, mamas counts.
There was a point in my life where I drank a lot, and my mama would always say “be sure you don’t drink too much” or “you don’t always have to drink” etc, or any other comment considering it may have just been my first drink of the day. Eventually it got to a point where I had to tell her “you mentioning my drinking, makes me drink more”. When I said that, I was really shocked that it came out of my mouth, and I think she was to. She picked up the plate she had just made, and went and sat down. I really haven’t heard too much more about my drinking. I think the reason why it was easier to tell my mama to leave me alone about drinking and bringing up my cannabis use is a no no, is because cannabis is illegal. If it was legal, I don’t think it would be a problem at all, but to tell the woman who raised me, the woman that taught me to follow the law, it’s difficult to tell her that I’m intentionally breaking the law. And I’m not breaking the law once, I’m a HABITUAL law breaker, and have been for a while.
I kind of think my mama knows that I smoke and use cannabis, but there’s still a gray area because I haven’t told her personally. She assumes, but doesn’t have just absolute concrete proof. That was until recently, my brother, my middle brother who can say anything to my mama and she pays absolutely no attention to it. He decides to tell my mama something along the lines of “oh yeah, he smokes, I wasn’t sure if she heard it because the conversation kept going, and no attention was paid to it. But in the same way my mama taught me to follow the law, she also taught me to stand for my beliefs. I believe that cannabis should be legal and I’m minding my business, so sooner or later, I’m thinking sooner than later that she and I will have this conversation. Have you told your mama? If so how did this conversation go? Tell us at firstname.lastname@example.org.
The Professional Black Stoner listens to NPR during work hours and Shade45/SXM Fly after work and on the weekends. I enjoy good cannabis, good food, some aspects of the outdoors and craft beer, good whisky, vodka and cognac.